I started feeling the tug on my heart the fall of 2009 to learn more about Religious life of the Catholic Church. This tug prompted me to send an “inquires postcard” off to a place that helps those discerning a Vocation in Religious life.
Early in 2010 I started receiving information from Religious Orders all over the USA. Wow! The ministries Sisters are a part of throughout the world are truly amazing. They are serving the poor, the sick, the orphans, the homeless and the list goes on. They are teachers, nurses, doctors, administrators, and again the list goes on. I sorted through ones that interested me, narrowed it down to four places that I wanted to visit and I never made it to the fourth place. I felt the third place was where the Lord was calling me to follow my heart.
I entered Holy Angels Convent in Jonesboro, AR on August 2011. I am looking forward to being the bride of Christ forever.
When I graduated from High School I started to go to College to take my basic classes to become a teacher. When I would schedule my classes I would make sure that they were after Mass in the morning. Then in the afternoon I would make sure I could go to Adoration when ever we had it.
I still wasn’t sure what God was calling me to do with my life. Until one day I went to Adoration and I was praying my rosary and asking God what he was calling me to do. Then about half way through my rosary he called me to religious life. So I began to pray about my vocation because I still wasn’t for sure and looking on the Internet for some communities and I came to some retreats here at Holy Angels Convent.
In March 2012 it was about my third visit at Holy Angels Convent, God gave me this peace about entering this community. So I went back to my home town in Lindsay, Texas. Then on July 30, I arrived to Holy Angels Convent in Jonesboro, Arkansas to take a step into discerning a vocation to the religious life.
I have to say that my aunt had made a definite impression on me when I was a child. She was a nun in Milwaukee, Wisconsin and would visit us occasionally. I was always fascinated by her long black habit and veil. Many times since then, thoughts of being a nun would come and go from my mind. I did not actually pursue it, but rather told myself that if it was meant to be, it would be. I also knew I did not attend mass on a regular basis. I had become an “Easter and Christmas only” visitor for a number of years.
In 2010, I was laid off from my position with the State of Louisiana. As I went through the emotional roller-coaster of not having a job and being 50-plus years old, I did the only thing I could think of besides sending out job applications and resumes; I picked up my rosary and began to pray. As my prayer life grew, so did my desire to return to church. That decision changed my life and the priest, whose profound sermon I heard that Sunday morning, became my Spiritual advisor. His belief that God was truly calling me to be a nun, led me on a two-year spiritual journey of discernment.
During those two years many tears were shed, many rosaries and prayers were said, and many concerns regarding my age crept into my mind. Was I too old? Had I waited to long? I also had a new job. After 15 weeks of unemployment, I was re-hired by the same agency. Through it all, I kept reminding myself that if it was meant to be, it would be. I also kept remembering a statement a wonderful sister had told me when I had the privilege to meet with her. She said, “God decides the time”.
The time came in 2012. With the help of a dream, divine intervention, my Spiritual advisor and a click of the mouse, I found Holy Angels Convent. In October of that year, I resigned from my position with the State of Louisiana and on March 20, 2013, I became an Olivetan Benedictine postulant. I have since come to believe that God allows us the time to obtain what we need in order to fulfill the life that He has planned for us; and, that He places in our path the events and people who will assist us and guide us towards that life. My spiritual journey of discernment continues and so does my new mental reminder, “if it’s God’s will, it will be”.